Rip my heart out.

Hell ye!! I wanna rip my heart out,
things are going up and down these days,
I'm becoming seriously mentally ill,
SOMEONE GET A DOCTOR!! Or, just get
an autopsy doctor.
The word "relax" doesn't even gets
its chance to appear in my mind,
only in the mouth...
not to mention "chill man"..

Either way, bloody assignments are up again,
won't be mentioning about those crap already,
waste of time.

Btw, one of my peers, Tai is getting engaged,
so fast........ especially when he announced it,
kindda makes me go like
*GAWN*... *speechless* followed by,
continuous laughing.
Lucky chap. All the best to him.
Had lunch together to congratulate him,
and dinner in a Korean restaurant.
By night ended up in Kai's house,
MONOPOLY...
One piece of advice: Do Not Challenge Anyone
With Tremendous Amount of Luck..
You're sure to lose even if it's 2 v 1...
Still dissatisfied thought,
I'll be looking forward to defeat tai by
next week after prom night!! MAUAHAH..
Watch his estates crumble into my hands!!
As he suffers into poverty, and is forced to
auction every piece of estates he owns!!

Hmm.. btw music instruments lovers,
check on Depapepe, damn cun!!
And it's so freaking hard to play guitar
of Depapepe scores lo..
Try out: Rosie Darko and Liquid spear Waltz by
Micheal Andrews too.
It's so soft... and makes you float in an eternal
zone of green gloomy liquefy place.
Try urself.
And thx to eric, for Issac Shepard-Before Dawn.
I'm so into that piano music already...
If only I didn't stop playing piano...
Nooo...

Becoming blur as days goes by.

Yawn... Finally handed up both my bio 2 and chem 2
assignments lo, had to stay up till bloody late
to rush them. Credits to my last min skill, hehe..
This is so bad... last min...
As for tests..
Hmm.. 2 fails, both chem 2 and 4, least bio was
ok, and I've just screwed up Calc today.. nooo...
Well, there's still bio 2 and chem 4 presentation
to go. Darn la.. Why is life so chaotic...
Cool..-_-

Term 2 exam timetables are out too... Holy grail!!
Nooo.. it comes like a train ar...


And with winter coming in... yes it's still autumn..
and it's already cold... When winter comes,
I'm so gonna freeze..
As for the trees... leaves are shedding
and undergoing colour change...


Next chemistry!! WHee..
I loved disobeying procedures and look at my
results!! Freaking awesome eh? But it does look
gross especially the bottom part... I'm still
tryig to figure out why the results
"stack". Possibly density.. suggestions anyone?
It started as this:




To this:


Anyway loads of "things" have been happening
around here lately. William's been pretty right,
time really flies fast this term...
I've been wondering too.. Hmm...
Might be the usual routine in life..
As for the rest, I've come to a decision to rest
my case. Was on the phone with Tai yesterday,
as he told me: "It's time i should know "it".
Yep, it's time. Hopefully.
It's better to know it sooner than to have "it"
deteriorate my studies.
Secondly, I've come to realise that I'm still fresh
to all these part and parcel of life.
Every strength and weakness cannot be hidden from
the sight of oneself, a day shall come for it
to spill. Mark my words.
Least I'll struggle,
to fight back. As the old ways, I'd die for it!!
Take 'em down as long as thy soul lives!!
Kindda remind me of my dark past,
good thing I've changed; That's how
the new Seon is born. And yet, a few can
tell my old past. I must say I'm amazed at some
people.

Btw about work, boss gave me a raise of 1 dollar per
hour already!! Whee... Cause I'm no longer under
"apprentice", which basically means..
NO MORE SPACES FOR MAKING MISTAKES!!

Finally an official disection!!Whee...

It's been like a few years,
since Kwang Hua, the forensic thingy,
Dr.Tan Hwai Seon thingy, or siau Seon,
Yes the day has come,DISSECTION!!

Wheeeee.............
^_^
I feel so fine this morning till noon in school
to do dissection today, yep we're dissecting rats,
reminds me of Pn.Tan(my bio teacher in Kwang Hua)
she said that Mr.Gan doesn't allow dissection of
frogs...
To Mr.Gan: The learning itself comes from
experiencing it not reading from the book...

Keep in mind the picture are SCIENCE not Violence...

Anyway to cut things short,

That man in the white lab coat, David Bird(my bio 2 lecture)
His gets to "cut" the pregnant one...

Well, I joined Miki, erm i can't remember the
others name... oops sry guys and gals...

Here's our little lady rat,
P.S: she's pretty small...


And this is the one when the head was dismembered:



And this one belongs to James(i think tat's his name)
He's done this like 6 times already
and he's so pro that he even teach me
the proper way to open a skull,
there was so much laughter,hahaha.


His eating his tail!!

There's another more with the embryo of the
little rats, oh well not posting..
In case... You know...
End of today...

One last thing to someone here which
I believe doesn't even know the existence of
this blog address:
I dun understand you,
You started it all,
I was truly dumb enough
to fall into, perhaps it was
curiosity or my desire?
Perhaps I love sadism of emotion,
so mesmerise by it.
Now here I am, in my own stupidity
feeling awkward, seeing you everyday,
makes the past replay,
was i being ferocious?
Or atrocious?
My soul is in agonising confusion!
Questions i often asked myself,
for least frivolous i wasnt.
sometimes it's best
for some ppl to leave,
time should work it's way.
When you leave I hope I can become who
I am, who I want to be and myself-
Perhaps I'm deceiving and lying to myself.
I know i'm losing my mind, any mistakes written
dun blame me I just write it out without even
hasitating... and making grammar/poem corrections...

I rather cherish my friends, family,
ppl who knew me and ppl whom i know, ppl
whom i loved, made promised to,
think about and care....

Complexity of life

Feeling like a deadpan,
My visions are blurred-it's dark,
Intimacy with darkness,
Thy shall will not notice,
for thy are oceans apart.

I'm left with hollow contradictions,
Feeling to be devoured,
By eternal entanglement of imaginations.
Revamp is the only hope.
And about hopes?
Reside me will thou?
Will thou intercedes?

Lolz... tat's wat came out of my mind.
Anyway it's around end of week 3,
and so much crap are due soon...NOOO!!
I'm toasted!! Like a meat being
bodyslam by bread and vegetables with
heavy sauce toppings... mmm...
Wait get tat thought back....
Anyway loads of things happend..
Long and complicating story...
Lazy to post.
And got tagged by Flora...
There's some rules too apply but ain't
writting.
1)What was I doing 10 years ago(1998)?
Hmm... I was schooling in SRJK(C) HIN HUA in
class 2H.. and Jacqueline was my neighbour..

2)5 things on my to-do list today
i)do homework and assignments la (always due)
ii)go city yum-cha with friends
iii)find santhia at city
iv)like bath now..
v)gg later

3)5 snacks I enjoy
i)mister potato(specifically tomato flavour in
packets not whole tin)
ii)chocolates that have mints
iii)any milk chocolate/belgian chocolate
iv)mamak foods(miss them liau)
v)food that makes you wanna have more(so much..)

4)5 things I would do if I were a billionaire
i)set up a secret laboratory(you know.. wat i do...)
ii)buy loads of lands!!
iii)treat all my friends go makan/yum-cha
iv)buy all the classical music in the world
v)turn my life into an up to date lifestyle
or set up a variety of lifestyle(
vi)So much more...

5)5 of my bad habits
i)Malaysian last mins
ii)Think too much
iii)Exagguration
iv)Multi-tasking in a bad way
v)Unable to control proper release of
dopamine lvl(normal rite?dunno..)

6)5 places I have lived
i)Klang
ii)Sasaran(Home town)
iii)Tanjong Karang
iv)Taiwan
v)Australia(Currently)

7)5 jobs I've had
i)Money changer
ii)Baker apprentice
iii)Retail apprentice(maybe)

8)5 people I tag
i)raymond(away)
ii)basil chang
iii)adrian(he didnt kena tag)
iv)both my sis!!
v)couz sis!!
vi)wei earn!!

Finally a job.

I went for job hunting in Nedlands(near where I'm
currently living), went to 2 bread shops and
IGA(supemarket). After mins of filling out forms,
from one place to another, Brumby's asked me to start
next sunday, 6.45 am-1.00 pm. Whoa... Need to sleep
early by saturday... nooo... no more gaming with
s7 mates already...

By 4 pm, I went with my couz for basketball with his
friends, it's been 2 years since I've met some of them
whoa, they still make jokes that are seriously hilarious.
You can actually kill a mosquito by not touching it
*gawn*... ahahhaha... Btw, it's a little violent
but it'd so fun to see a mosquito blow up...
AHHAHAh...(I'm not telling till I try it)
Got bump in the face while playig again, ok, 2 spectacles down!!
That is not good...

And lately there's been this heavy and painful
crisis going on around me, and it's getting on
to my nerve. Things turn out from bad to worst,
but eventually I end up with that high lvl
of dopamine. AHHAHAHA as if I took too much
cranks or smoke weeds...(BTW I dun do tat!!)
I'm a "saint".
Ok I was driven by insanity, call it stress or
my own "thoughts" for the past few days,
and I have to thanks those whom help me out
with advices and best of all, direct answers
which have resolve into great solutions.

Anyway I joined the guitar club in school,
consisting of 6 members, 2 staff and 4 students, -.-
It was fine, we have 2 very good players, Adil and Ian.
Looking forward to next thrusday meeting.

Next, I have loads of assignment,project,presentation
and the common ones:homeworks.
Hell is restarting, always by the 2nd or 3rd week of
each term. Oh well, I have to complete my motif here,
getting into UWA.

High lvl of dopamine.

Let's see been moody for the few days back,
and now since yesterday my dopamine level
is apparently quite high...
And I know it's lowering soon..

Anyway went to watch Iron Man in perth city
today, started with 7 ppl for lunch first,
followed by movie with 6 ppl.
Anyway I learn something today,
"char kow tiau"(malaysia) or "nau chau __ hor"(hong kong)
is apparently almost the same.
My "chef" friend(he does cook mushroom i
like to eat), he told me about how to
know "how good a chef is" by trying that
specific plate for it involves loads of
skills to prepare a plate like that.
Secondly, I knew I need to expand my range
so social circle.
Thirdly, school, *yawn*... oh yea...
There's a prom on June the 7th.
No girl... S.O.S... nvm la..
Go pinjam one ahhaha... ask ppl from
Malaysia come here.. (i wished)
Anyway biology!! Genetics, biotechnology assignment!!
Chemistry: Forensic for presentation!! But ppl take
liau *sob*... yerrr....
As for medicine... might not b taking liau...
It's complicated...but I'll try wat I can,
I've made a promise already...

To turn things around, I've been playing loads
of warcraft 3:FT maps with s7 friends,
Yes, it was fun, best of all I felt back home!!
Yippeeeeee