Alterations

Change,
i've notice the trend in flip-flops around lives of ppl around me,
as compared to back then for say, 3 years ago?
This trend, kept me pondering what on earth has been going on?
Surprisingly, after weeks of pondering I came up with a conclusion,
simply; we're growing and adapting to the reality out there.

For instance, of many blogs i've revisited, gatherings, yum-cha sessions,
noticing that friends are beginning to lose touch with each other,
being skeptical about hanging out around the same bunch,
or perhaps the change in the sense of "interest" and losing topic of "interest".
As the saying goes, as we grow older we branch out amongst oneself.

Funny, it's easy to see the trends, but the true answer beneath it...
lies rather, in COMPLEXITY.

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Things have become rather, unusual since you left,
as if you left a very deep touch amongst my occupied place,
not of curse but of compliment and praise.
As much as i'd love to say, "please come again".
Bi... dun get murdered by boredom. Kill it,
remember that awesome book you showed me?
Have a read. Might be aweseon?

Alterations

Leadership

Been thinking bout the past randomly after the trip,
leadership came through me first, I remember my old days,
the very first time i entered bilden, i was immediately
promoted to leader which astound me very much.
Come to think of my experiences, and now...
I wonder what have all these natural leadership instincts,
aura and power have gone to I questioned.

All the while in college and university,
I've never find myself possessing my past powers as before.
In deep thoughts, I find no inner peace,
regretted the lost of my powers.

Anyway decided to go for a heavy chain of diet after reading
readers digest recently.


1)Usual bread - Dense bread/linseed or sourdough
2)Cakes and pastries - Fruit yogurt(excellent for sweet toothed)
3) Snacks(chips) - Dried fruit, apple/apricots and nuts. Fresh grapes, raspberries, figs and rhubarb
4)Rice, pasta and noodles - Long-grain rice, basmati, medium-grain brown, cracked wheat(bulgur) quinoa or buckwheat noodle.
5)Spread and sweeteners, sugar, honey, syrup - yellow box honey
Taken from reader digest.

Suicide

I've finally understood why some ppl commit suicide.

In my opinion:
I hate my internet connection.
I find life too weird.
I hate the way the "system" here.
I find talking on the phone too long bizarre.

It's funny that,
thy can see the "objective/goal/aim",
yet not the movement.

It's far grotesque when we start googling "suicide".

Never meant anything I said.

Sry bi.