Dreaming of an ancient boat going down the abyss

Lost and confused from inside, despite guiding lights,
I cannot forget, dismiss the past nor escape the memories.

Thankful that my daily life activities has kept me occupied,
I have target, goals, family to strive for,
people who rely on me,
people who in turn trade in their emotional support.

They kept me from remembering The past.
How I wish it was our past, it like my past now.

I'm don't feel lost nor am I devastated,
but how I wished we could restart all over.

I met people who were willing to spend their life with me.
Pity.
Selfish.
Narcissistic.

Stop dreaming.